The Issue of Trust

It is interesting to consider that in my entrance psychological exams for seminary, I came out as being overly trusting.

Over the last few weeks, I have come to the realization that I am not a very trusting person. Certainly, I tend to give people the benefit of the doubt in everyday relationships. When it comes to the heart, however, I tend to guard myself a little too much.

I have held up many walls over the years to protect myself from getting hurt. I have been working at bringing those walls down lately, but it makes me feel incredibly vulnerable. I sense a strong threat of getting hurt and it scares me.

Right now, I am learning my faith in God's presence isn't as strong as I thought it was. I don't trust that God will bring me through the good and the bad. I preach the message regularly, but now understand I have never truly taken that message to heart. This is a very difficult thing to realize, and i'm a bit ashamed.

I know this isn't my normal, bubbly post, but even I have those "non-bubbly" moments. This time of transition personally and vocationally is a bit difficult right now. If you could please keep me in your prayers, it would be very much appreciated.

A Name Change

Before I head off to Synod assembly, I wanted to share the news that I now have an official title in front of my name! I am now, the "Reverend Laura insert last name"!

Pretty darn cool, isn't it?! Thanks God! :)

I will share more details about my ordination when I get a free moment. Thank you for your prayers!